I would like to be sad now.
My mothers solution is to either go back to my ex husband or get married again. I spent more time comforting her and reassuring her I would be fine, then actually getting any comfort. I guess that's okay. I don't want her to worry.
I sent my boyfriend off to Tahoe this morning which is probably for the best because then I don't have to pretend to be happy for his sake. I don't want to worry him either.
Now I'll go to work for eight hours and smile and pretend like everything is just fine. I don't get paid for being sad.
But I am so tired. I would like to find a safe place where I can just be sad and not have to hold back and "be reasonable" or "cheer up" or reassure everyone that "things are so much better now."
Most days that's true. Most days are good days. But not today. Today I am very, very sad.
I wonder if he is too?
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It is great to be sad. If that is what you're feeling of course. Be sad...feel what you feel...and be IN what God has you in right now. I love you!
It is (was?) my wedding anniversary today. :/
you can always come be sad (or happy) with me. keep in touch, okay? I've called & emailed & no response. I've been thinking about you a lot, e.
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